What a huge experience it is to be alive! 

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I’ve walked my own path through the contractions of trauma, dissociation, PTSD, anxiety, and depression and along the way, I’ve been supported by wise, compassionate healers and powerful modalities that helped guide me home to myself.

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My experience working with healing energy began when I was at the young age of three. I still remember my wonderful father and our family friend ,Heidi, teaching me how to play with energy fields. How to sense them in different ways and work with them. Heidi also taught me the importance of playing in the rain without an umbrella, rain coat and shoes. So valuable!

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During this time Dad also encouraged me by helping me name the bright white light I sometimes saw around people as their Auras. My first memory of this word was when my family was walking down a busy street in China Town, Toronto while on a city adventure. An elderly Asian woman pushing a walker was slowly walking towards us from the North, and, holding my hand, my dad whispered a question, "What do you see?". "A bright white light around that lady's body", I answered.That's when I found a name for the various shades of light that I was seeing from time to time. I began to play with what had light and was thrilled to realize that everything does. Everything. I loved looking around and seeing the variety of densities of light and thickness in the energies. I found it fascinating to experience someone's light growing and expanding when they spoke of something of value to them. It was amazing how it could change from moment to moment. As time passed I began to see colours too, but not as frequently.

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I started dancing at the same age of three. It took me time to find the value in it. It felt like a hard job when all I wanted to do at that time was to be at home with my family, eating yummy snacks and playing outside... maybe in my dance outfit. But, when I grew into puberty and needed another teacher, dance was there and dance was ME. I felt how movement heals. How stillness heals too. Our bodies know their way to healing. They can't help but tell the truth, just like our energy. If we listen to them I truly believe they will give us everything they can to bring us to peace and healing. 

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As time passed I continued to work with my own energy, sensing shifts with my hands and my intuition. I was able to help myself a lot. When I needed more help, I found it in another incredible healer, Roger. Roger, a dear family friend, was and is an amazing energy worker who offered to help anyone who asked. My first session with Roger was my first experience with Reiki and it was powerful. Roger also taught me about other healers he knew and, as a chef, he shared valuable insights about water and food; How we can work with its energy and honour it fully as a union. 

"Forget not what you are when surrounded by that which you are not". A quote from the book Roger gave me called, "Conversations With God" by Neale Donald Walsh. I said this to myself on repeat during the exceptionally challenging days living in Toronto while attending a demanding and competitive university dance program. I still think that's a good one, although my list of quotes could fill volumes now!

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My "dark night of the soul" came in a few years after...

Feeling hopeless, lost, riddled with anxiety, depression and PTSD, I needed help. 

I spent many years, about 13, doing intensive talk therapy with a brilliant therapist, Laurette... who helped me face what once felt impossible. She truly supported me through my darkest days and gave me hope that things would get better and, slowly it did. I was developing a deep psychological understanding and confidence.

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Years later, when I was no longer able to work with Laurette, I met my another teacher, Carmen. Carmen helped me turn a corner by focusing on the dissociation I had been unknowingly experiencing — a state that was causing me to feel re-traumatized and un-healable.

This was a huge shift in my healing. In order to feel safe, my nervous system needed to understand and experience that the past trauma was OVER. Although my mind knew this logically, my psyche and body did not, and I was riddled with anxiety and bouts of terror for decades...until those pivotal sessions.

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Having support to come out of that dissociated state gave me access to my Full Self — the Soul Self that is eternal and full of light, knowing, and peace. Every time I am able to come fully into the present moment and my own personal energy (my soul energy), I experience safety. I am overcome with a deep trust in how things unfold, and in the timing in which they unfold. I feel connected to the beauty of nature and the human experience. I am filled with tremendous ease, peace, and relief... It is an immense experience of love and connectedness.

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During my time with this Carmen and then some of her colleagues, Nadine (a powerful medium and sound healer), and others, I learned many tools that helped me come home to myself. It was so powerful that I immediately wanted to pass on this gift to anyone who could benefit from it. I was bursting with love and, for the first time in decades, free from the weight of anxiety. I wanted everyone to know there was hope!

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In addition to the many tools I learned to help dissociative parts, one of the most valuable lessons was the importance of prioritizing our experience of safety while doing healing work. I learned this the hard way — through moments in my own healing where I felt rushed or pushed into places my psyche wasn’t ready for. These experiences left me feeling overwhelmed and ungrounded.

It is now my priority to honour the pace that healing takes — and this pace is unique for each of us. I believe we all carry an innate wisdom, and when we allow that wisdom the time and space to express itself, we can follow it gently into peace, connection, and love. Divine Time.

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There have been so many more teachers. Each moment in itself teaches me countless things... every encounter, every quiet moment. There is endless content to draw from and I'm so grateful. 

Today I spend my time dancing with a beautiful community who supports truth, expression and identity. I walk barefoot, write, sing, heal, offer holding and guidance for healing and connect with nature, my family, Juno, (my sweet dog), and those I love in the "invisible realms". 

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In this nurturing open container I have continual rituals — a return to my body, my soul, and my unique energetic way of being in the world. I have come to a place of true gratitude. I am astounded by the gifts and lessons. This journey, full of content, has led me to a place of deep love, peace, and liberation. And it’s from this place that I now hold space — with reverence, presence, deep care, celebration, and love.

I believe in You!